Viktor walked outside and sat down by the pond
He thought long about his girlfriend
Studying abroad far up north
The bright moon lit the garden and Viktor lit a cigar
A warm summer evening
He looked once more at the moon
It felt closer than the girl was
And then he texted her
“Do you see it too?”
“Yes, honey, I do.”
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One foot in comfort and one in chaos
Since I’m in Bulgaria, I have my job and besides that lots of free time. In the first year here, I noticed time was flying by. I didn’t do much with the time off work. Well, I didn’t create anything lasting. Since that realization, I made it a point to produce more than I consume, in terms of what the mind. Continuing not doing much productive with my free time would have left to regrets, something I wanted to avoid at all cost. I can consume anything intellectually, such as books and movies. But, unless it’s very good, I’ll forget I ever consumed the material. Besides, I don’t take much out of most books and movies. Granted, I didn’t make a big effort to select the true best masterpieces that are said to be life-changing. And I wasn’t going to. I decided I would get to the movies and best series when I’d retire and have more time to sit around. If that day may come – it’s some time to go.
I started writing, painfully so. It wasn’t any good. I didn’t get many words on paper. I kept going. Out of all the texts I wrote, I dared to share just a few. Sharing my thoughts and feelings was far out of my comfort zone. But I got good feedback and decided to keep making myself uncomfortable. But not completely – I like my comfort. That’s why I now make it a point to put one foot in comfort and one in chaos, which is a place where I don’t know exactly what to do. I’m figuring things out and learn along the way. And if I get scared, I put two feet back in comfort. But only for a short moment, until I put myself back out there.
This metaphore can be useful for anyone wanting to reach some personal goals. Make it a reality check and think of whether you’re with two feet in comfort, perhaps two in chaos? It takes little to turn your life into chaos – I’m not talking about life-changing effects that pull the rug under your feet. This is about your day-to-day life, when you go to work and have some time for productive things in the evenings. Your weekends, when you think of starting a side hustle or writing a book. Put one foot in chaos. Do something you didn’t do before. You can always step back into comfort, but make that time short.
Start expecting more of yourself – eventually you’ll learn to find a balance between comfort and chaos. Things you do that make you uncomfortable can often lead you to places you didn’t expect you’d reach. And one door opens itself after another. A door you’d have never seen if you hadn’t taken the steps into chaos, into an activity you were slightly uncomfortable with.
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Roman overlooks the village
And wipes the sweat of his hands
His thougts all over the place
The house untidy as ever
He survives day by day
As he walks by the fields
And sometimes he feels lonely
But it never lasts long
With his neighbours close by
Right on the next farm
He waters his plants
With cold water from the well
When his neighbours come along
He lets makes them a coffee
He says he misses his children
In a land far away
And Roman never forgets to mention
That everybody’s okay
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